How do we maintain zen mind, beginner mind in our spiritual journey? We always have something to learn even if it means making mistakes or misjudgments. With beginner’s mind, faith and failure are integral. We cannot learn if we feel we already know. We do not expand without putting questions before us and contemplating them. In the Zen tradition, zen mind, beginner mind is a state of reception and openness. It is a willingness to learn and the courage to take risks. These risks take the form of actions and importantly they take the form of vulnerability. We can approach … [read more]
Removing our armor can take a lifetime, but it doesn’t have to if we learn how to become vulnerable to our grief.
I am checking in remotely this week. I haven’t been home for a while. I haven’t had internet and I am slowed down..,on purpose. My senses have awakened like never before, not just the regular five but the sixth, seventh and possibly the 8th which I at this point cannot explain. Time at the The Hive has proven to be magica,l and one of the guardians of the land have made themselves known. There are some students of the Awareness School who have been blessed to see this mighty creature and until last weekend, I had not experienced the … [read more]
Assimilation is the way we take in teachings and wisdom of the ages. Without our experience to verify its truth, it is only information. Since the beginning of my life, I was taught principles by which to abide with the promise of getting somewhere better. I was taught to blindly follow. With faith, I accepted that if I followed certain laws, the promise of a better life, perhaps only in heaven, would become true. I was fed those ideas and it all seemed to make sense…until it didn’t. I was being told over and over that I was a sinner … [read more]
Why would I want to tell you about my sexual experience? The time has come for the shadows to come forward. We must all tell our stories of the rampant sexual abuse that has gone on for too long.. We must speak out about misogyny, sexual abuse, sexual harassment, child molestation and sexual shame. Huge subject, but the healing is happening. We can see it all around in the form of people speaking out. Look at current affairs, the Catholic Church, and women in the workplace. I work with groups, especially groups of women and usually when the question is … [read more]
I am not your typical meditation teacher. The fact that I come from a troubled background has most likely shaped who I am and why I do what I do. I sought ways to relieve my pain and confusion, my isolation and my fear. I think I wondered as a kid how I got myself in such an unsatisfying situation. I remember feeling sorry for myself a lot when I looked around and was convinced that everyone else had it so much better. I just knew that some people had loving families and Moms that came to their rescue. I … [read more]