In looking back, I accomplished so much last year, a book, a CD, a new global clientele and the enormous growth of my meditation groups.. This is not a brag, but a hope that you will be inspired.
Someone asked me the last day of the year, “Have you always been able to manifest what you set out to do so easily?” and the answer is no. Through all of this expanded awareness practice, mindfulness and meditation, I have learned to implement what I set out to do. I don’t question, hesitate or flounder once I have made a decision to do it. It no longer takes me a long time to make those decisions and once done, I set a specific date with specific goals and begin to take daily action. If my action is not producing results, I steer the boat in another direction, but I don’t quit. I have learned discipline and how to struggle in the yes and no.
It wasn’t always like that.
I was plagued with decisions for fear of making a mistake or not being good enough or wondering what people might think. I may not have always recognized that was behind it, but something or some excuse kept me from doing things. I was plagued with doing anything but the desired action and when the day was done, I beat myself up for not doing the particular activity needed to get toward my goal. Making myself feel inadequate was the running inner dialogue and fulfilled the role that adults had presented to me as a child.
I somehow let anything get in the way of my desired goal. I thought procrastination was my modus operandi, but really it provided the chance for me to keep this “story” of not being good enough alive. When we are given that message as a child, whether directly or indirectly, we all find ways to perpetuate the limiting belief into adulthood.
What changed at a clear turning point was a freedom from that kind of inner turmoil. It came as a result of truly understanding with all of my Being, the crazy things my Ego made me believe. It came as a result of letting go of who I perceived myself to be.
My inner work, my daily awareness and my meditation allowed me to see just how crazy things work inside of me and all of us, but that came after effort of a different sort.
It was daily work of first noticing that subconscious story at play, actually experiencing myself hearing the voice, then at a more advanced stage noticing actual feelings occurring at the same time. I learned to watch my habitual, mechanical, reactional unawake self and that was the first step toward consciousness of Self.
It’s not some past life stuff to learn about. It is not solely a psychological process of understanding and analysing where it all came from. Knowing what happened to you in the past does not help you notice it in the present moment. Often it can feed the story more.
The change happens in a present moment of Self Observation.
That is why there is so much hubbub about learning meditation, having awareness and attention. You are developing this “muscle” of attention which eventually leads to your own freedom!
It is our mission here on earth in this lifetime to rediscover who we already are underneath the crust of our wacky Ego and its shenanigans. That is our purpose and every great teacher and prophet of all religions has come here to show us that.
My hope for us all is to discover for ourselves who we truly are and our real life purpose, so we can manifest that into the world. We are meant to be creative, thriving, abundant, joyful and loving toward ourselves and each other.
Let’s prioritize, implement, and work hard while taking time to enjoy life like there is no tomorrow. Get wild with passion in whatever you do, seize the day and Carpe the heck out of your diem.
Happy New Year!