When I listen closely with all parts of me, an integration I cannot explain, I experience a deep sense of trust.
I realize the more I feel this trust, the more I see what was missing from so much of my life. When I felt scared, anxious, and so willing to please without any regard to what I really wanted, it was from lack of trust. There was not a solid foundation from which to say no.
The more I listen in stillness within myself, the more I experience a consciousness that connects me to an eternal force. It represents strength and becomes that upon which I lean. In fact, it is the very thing that allows me to take greater and greater risks. Those risks come in the form of creativity and love with little regard to what anyone might think.
This integration is a result of years of inner reflection, and observation of my thinking, my feelings, and my body even after the perspective from beyond the three was established.. In this subtle, yet deep awareness which continues to expand, I see within myself that which is God, that which is perfection, that which can love. This is very foreign to the way I have been taught to regard myself.
Probably for most of us, feeling love for ourselves means we are arrogant and prideful, but I have realized that trying to keep pride and arrogance at bay has stopped me from realizing my greatness.
I have cut myself off from my power because of the fear of being self centered. There was no room for my greatness.
As I listen inside, watching with eagle eye, I begin to see that spark that I could not recognize before, that I would not let myself embrace.
As I hear the celestial sounds of my own Being, thought completely subsided, I melt in gratitude for the fantastical journey that started with unflinching faith and conviction, now bolstered by trust in a process well beyond just my effort.
The more I am able to trust, the more I am able to let go and take the next leap.
How can I describe to you what I hear as trust?
It is no longer shrouded in self doubt and yet there is a questioning vigilance toward what is really happening within me; the strength to look; the risk to feel.
The absence of fear, the desire to create, solidity, security,and relief.
I can look back and realize how much my life depended on me protecting me from me.
Ironically, I listen and realize that I Am…a merge with eternal consciousness that I thought at one time was not me. The gates were closed because I had locked them up and thrown away the key vowing to fight the good fight in the name of survival.
As I listen, there is a sweet longing for all of us to let go more, to try harder, to not give up, to question, to be brave and to allow. I hear all of us really wanting that, each in our own individual way. I hear our fear and our pain.
As I listen, the earth too sings its song of longing as the aspen leaves rustle and the waves come crashing into me. Her power is something to behold, not as a force that will vanquish the foe, but as a lesson to be learned and a connection to be had.
Then there is the music of the spheres; the almighty vibration of higher frequency that can only come to me in a synchronistic flow of understanding of something more precious and holy than words can describe. Everything fits and everything is miraculously infinite in fractal cohesion. The Laws of the Universe abide and I am distinctly part of that system.
I listen and know that I am enough. In fact, I am not only enough, I am powerful beyond any stretch of the imagination. I can embrace the power that once scared me, that got shut down, that doesn’t belong in a world of fear.
Listen…can you hear it?
I would love to hear your thoughts on this sublject. what happens when you sit and listen? Can you experience sensation in your body and notice both your feelings and your thinking?
Here’s another article on listening to your intuition: No Static At All
Listening is important to our spiritual development. Can you listen to your heart?
Have a great week,